Mixed feelings

During this Diwali vacation, I realized that I am just waiting for a chance to devote all my energy to. Something larger than life to stand up for. And I have been waiting for this desperately. I still dont know whats my calling in life.. what is it that deeply moves me... I only have a faint idea of it. But I am not sure.

Happiness comes from efforts you put in towards an achievement and not the achievement itself. Otherwise, everyone would have been sitting in casinos, making easy money. We work, human beings work and learn from it, develop ourselves, make the society a better place.. and that makes them happy.

My mind is endlessly battling with thoughts, actions about what is right and what is wrong. I want to change myself.. the way things are.. change is good and I have always found change good.

The problem with normal human beings is that we can focus on only one thing and then work towards it. I cant conquer a mountain daily. Perhaps, the time would come when I would be ready for that. But who knows? Another thing about fighting it out is sometimes I think I would give my best shot when the chance is just right.. wait for the opportunity.. the dream opportunity.. which never comes.

Should I wait for opportunity or create opportunity?